A few weeks ago I became very ill; at first I thought it was the flu. As it continued for over a week I thought it might be a good idea to go to the Dr., so one night after work I ran into the city to see a Dr. He prescribed antibiotics so I was prepared to be well shortly. I was wrong; it kept getting worse. I was advised to eat little and that was easy to do. I did not get better and began to be severly dehydrated. One morning (day 11 of this), I began to get scared and went to the hospital. I could not drive myself and was thankful that someone was able to drive me there. My sister came and sat with me for the remainder of the day. I felt helpless and I cried very easily. This was a new experience for me.
It contained many gifts, which I did not appreciate at the time. It was all very humbling. I eventually got the answers I needed and made some changes. It took almost 2 weeks, some detective work, 10 pounds lighter and another Dr. and friend to solve the mystery.
I count my blessing faithfully and my excellent health had always been uppermost on the list. It was not until I got so sick that I could appreciate it. I also believe that it was the only way that the Universe could get my attention and help me to change directions. I was not listening to my soul. I thought I had all of the answers. My body got me to stop and listen. I was so weak and listless that I could not go anywhere and I listened.
One of the gifts was that I have more compassion for people that are ill. I could not relate before and I was also judgemental. I had the belief that I was in total control over my health; I was self-righteous. Now, not so much. I still recognize that my thoughts affect my body. There is a definite connection but I definitely have no idea of all that is going on in my subconscious mind and I was shown. That is the humbling part. I still take 100% responsibility for my life, including my health but I also accept my humaness and am kinder and much more compassionate to myself.
Since I could eat very little I appreciate food much more now as well. I want to remember this experience and all of the gifts.
Another gift was that I needed to ask for help. I am usually in control and can drive myself anywhere and anytime. People were there for me and I am grateful to know this. It showed me that I am being taken care of by God, through people. I believe we are all incredibly loved. I felt it and I felt very thankful to feel it; there was a knowingness. I believe it is there for us all; to experience the Love and Protectiveness and even if we don’t feel it, understanding that it is all around us..I will say it again. We are greatly loved and adored, more than we know!!